I've been a bit slack in updating the blog, mainly because there's very little to report on for my TTC efforts other than, well, DTD which I'm sure none of you are particularly interested in ;) LOL
I've started taking Vitex and I had a good chat to the lady at the chemist. I'm glad I spoke to her as she was actually rather thorough asking questions about my cycle. TMI warning ahead: In talking to her, it seems that perhaps my cycles (apart from being all over the place) are not normal as talking about it, I don't seem to get much red blood when AF arrives, it's mostly brown and clotty. She said this isn't exactly normal but it's not something I need to be rushing off to the doctor about as she seems to think the Vitex will definitely sort this out. I'd be interested in hearing from others about this if you don't mind sharing? She said that it may take at least 2 cycles for the Vitex to have any effect - if you've taken Vitex, what are your experiences with it?
I thought I'd give also give a quick update on the weight loss while I'm here.
I've been going to the gym (including the gym in our building over Easter when the normal gym was closed!) regularly and trying to push harder each time. Every time it starts to feel too hard, I remind myself why I'm doing this, and start visualising that pregnancy, that baby, that child that I'm doing this for and before I know it, I've pushed through it and it's time to finish. I've got my personal training sessions and I've done 4 of them now. Two more to go. The last two she's really pushed me and I think it's fair to say my legs and arms will be very sore tomorrow!!!
Weight-wise, I was disappointed to discover on Sunday that I'd only lost 400g since the previous Sunday. I was so devastated that I hadn't reached my goal of 1kg a week when I've been extra good with food (as in NO naughty food at all!) and had been exercising my butt off!
I decided to weigh myself on Tuesday morning as I was sure that the cardio I'd done the couple of days prior to weigh in day just needed an extra day or two to catch up and I was right - according to the scales, I'd lost 1.5kg since Sunday! Clearly I can't expect much of a weight loss (if any) next Sunday when I weigh myself but even if I don't lose anything for the rest of this week, I'm thrilled with this result.
So, the weight loss in total so far is 2.5 + 2.6 + 0.4 + 1.5= 6.5kg!!!
I am ecstatic that I have been able to achieve this on my own because I feel like every kilo I'm losing puts me one step closer to getting pregnant. I decided though that I need to step it up a notch, so I paid some dollars and joined Michelle Bridges 12 Week Body Transformation. I've started a new blog for my weight loss stuff as there are prizes involved but I'll still update bits and pieces on here. If you're interested in keeping track of my weight loss journey, the new blog is: http://bellas12wbt.blogspot.com/ .
I've actually noticed in the last week-ish my sex drive has started to return, which has definitely gotta be a good thing for baby making eh?!?! Not to mention, the new jeans I bought a few weeks ago no longer fit me (OK so they were a fraction too big for me then, but now they're waaaay too big for me!). That's gotta be a good thing!
Wish me luck!!!!
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Weigh in day
This morning was weigh in day. I was nervous. I almost didn't weigh myself. My goal was to have lost 1kg since Sunday last week. I stupidly had already weighed myself on Wednesday and had only lost 200g which is really nothing. I know it was too early, but I was still worried I'd be disappointed when I stood on the scales this morning.
But, I wasn't disappointed. In fact, I wasn't disappointed at all, I was thrilled to discover that I had lost 2.6kg since Sunday last week.
It's amazing what can happen when you prioritise baby over chocolate etc (although I won't lie - this week when I had AF, and when I was writing the assignment that was due, I'd have LOVED some chocolate but I refused to give into temptation).
I had a personal training session on Thursday night and we talked about my goal to have a baby, the weight that might be holding me back from achieving that goal and how my bad lower back will cope when I do get that goal.
We did some exercises that will hopefully strengthen my core muscles etc in the hope that it will help when I do get pregnant. I realised how much I'd missed personal training and how much better the gym is for me when I have someone to answer to, and someone to push me further than I'd push myself. I decided to pay for 6 PT sessions for the month I've got this gym membership, which works out to be 2 sessions a week. I decided it was an investment in losing the weight in the hope that this will help me get pregnant, and also an investment to make pregnancy easier on my back. It might only be a month, but after that month, I'll definitely be looking at joining a gym and doing PT again - it really does make such a difference.
I also hope that by focussing on my health, it will take the focus off TTC and also make me feel a bit better about myself. I have to admit that since I realised just how much weight I'd put on, I haven't felt like DTD as much as I used to. To be honest, the reason we were out last month was because I'd ovulated late, and we really hadn't had sex around that time, at all...! I hope that by losing weight, it'll give me back my mojo and we'll be going like rabbits again like we used to, before TTC and before I realised how much weight I'd put on. This too, will help us get that baby that we both want.
Fingers crossed!
xxx
But, I wasn't disappointed. In fact, I wasn't disappointed at all, I was thrilled to discover that I had lost 2.6kg since Sunday last week.
It's amazing what can happen when you prioritise baby over chocolate etc (although I won't lie - this week when I had AF, and when I was writing the assignment that was due, I'd have LOVED some chocolate but I refused to give into temptation).
I had a personal training session on Thursday night and we talked about my goal to have a baby, the weight that might be holding me back from achieving that goal and how my bad lower back will cope when I do get that goal.
We did some exercises that will hopefully strengthen my core muscles etc in the hope that it will help when I do get pregnant. I realised how much I'd missed personal training and how much better the gym is for me when I have someone to answer to, and someone to push me further than I'd push myself. I decided to pay for 6 PT sessions for the month I've got this gym membership, which works out to be 2 sessions a week. I decided it was an investment in losing the weight in the hope that this will help me get pregnant, and also an investment to make pregnancy easier on my back. It might only be a month, but after that month, I'll definitely be looking at joining a gym and doing PT again - it really does make such a difference.
I also hope that by focussing on my health, it will take the focus off TTC and also make me feel a bit better about myself. I have to admit that since I realised just how much weight I'd put on, I haven't felt like DTD as much as I used to. To be honest, the reason we were out last month was because I'd ovulated late, and we really hadn't had sex around that time, at all...! I hope that by losing weight, it'll give me back my mojo and we'll be going like rabbits again like we used to, before TTC and before I realised how much weight I'd put on. This too, will help us get that baby that we both want.
Fingers crossed!
xxx
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
And another one bites the dust
Looks like I'm out this month - AF joyfully (not) arrived on Monday at CD37. Not happy Jan - no 2011 baby for me now...
This time 3 years ago, I was pregnant. I really hope I'm pregnant again before the anniversary of when I lost my twins in June.
Going to head to the chemist on the weekend and get me some Vitex as suggested by Tee - these long irregular cycles are annoying (and a huge head fuck!!!).
The eating and exercise plan is going well so far this week (on like, day 3...). I haven't had one coffee, or any junk food at all so far - no small feat, although I can't say I haven't missed that morning coffee... I've been to the gym every day so far this week. On Monday I did Zumba and Body Pump. On Tuesday I did Power Yoga. I got up extra early this morning and fit in Hatha Yoga before work. Tomorrow I'm doing a boxing class. Let me tell you, I'm discovering muscles I had long forgotten about, but it's good to feel that again.
I just hope that this hard work reflects on the scales on Sunday, and that losing this weight will give me that baby that I have wanted for so long.
Saturday, April 9, 2011
On another note...
I'm now CD36 and my Sydney Boy was wrong with his prediction - still no AF. I caved and tested last week at CD31 (I think) and it was a BFN.
If no AF by Friday I'll do another HPT, and if that's still a BFN I will be going to the doctor for a blood test to see, at the very least, whether I've even ovulated yet.
Waiting, waiting, waiting...
If no AF by Friday I'll do another HPT, and if that's still a BFN I will be going to the doctor for a blood test to see, at the very least, whether I've even ovulated yet.
Waiting, waiting, waiting...
On my way to getting that baby...
I weighed myself today on the Wii Fit and I was very happy to see that I've lost 2.5kg since I last weighed myself. I'm very happy to have discovered this, even though the last time I weighed myself was a month ago, so it's a very slow weightloss. That said, I'm still pretty happy with it when I consider I haven't done any exercise, and up until the end of last week, although I was eating somewhat healthily most of the time, there was still room for improvement (read: 3pm sugar binges and sometimes skipping breakky).
I bought Michelle Bridges' Crunchtime Cookbook on Wednesday night which I'm super impressed with. It's got lots of great info in it as well as a 12 week meal plan with recipes for every meal, where all the meals are simple, don't take much time to prepare and I don't have to go to some obscure shop in the middle of Timbucktoo to find some of the ingredients.
Needless to say, since Thursday, I've been eating only meals from the book and I have to say I'm really enjoying it. I've never really been shown how to eat healthy like this before. Growing up, my grandmother used to cook the same old mashed potato and pumpkin, carrots and meat every night, and when mum cooked, it would mostly be something out of a cardboard box from the freezer. If mum did make a salad, it was always a very boring iceberg lettuce, cheese and tomato sort of salad which always left me feeling hungry which never really inspired me to want to eat salads.
I also managed to score a month's membership at the V Club for $30 which I thought was the Universe telling me that there is no time like the present to get this weight off me in the hope that this is what is holding me back in the baby-stakes.
My first visit was Thursday night (I didn't waste any time) and I went to a belly dancing class - let me just say, I had forgotten how uncoordinated I am!!!!
Anyway, tomorrow is D-Day, the official start day for smashing both my eating habits and my exercise habits. I'm hoping to go to the Cycle class (if there are enough bikes, because I'm only on a trial pass, I can't book them!) and then follow that by the Body Pump class. I know that's a lot and to be honest I'm not even sure I'll be able to manage it, but it's the only way I can get to all the classes in the week.
I WILL get that baby. Maybe not this year now, but that doesn't mean I can't have a 2012 baby...
I bought Michelle Bridges' Crunchtime Cookbook on Wednesday night which I'm super impressed with. It's got lots of great info in it as well as a 12 week meal plan with recipes for every meal, where all the meals are simple, don't take much time to prepare and I don't have to go to some obscure shop in the middle of Timbucktoo to find some of the ingredients.
Needless to say, since Thursday, I've been eating only meals from the book and I have to say I'm really enjoying it. I've never really been shown how to eat healthy like this before. Growing up, my grandmother used to cook the same old mashed potato and pumpkin, carrots and meat every night, and when mum cooked, it would mostly be something out of a cardboard box from the freezer. If mum did make a salad, it was always a very boring iceberg lettuce, cheese and tomato sort of salad which always left me feeling hungry which never really inspired me to want to eat salads.
I also managed to score a month's membership at the V Club for $30 which I thought was the Universe telling me that there is no time like the present to get this weight off me in the hope that this is what is holding me back in the baby-stakes.
My first visit was Thursday night (I didn't waste any time) and I went to a belly dancing class - let me just say, I had forgotten how uncoordinated I am!!!!
Anyway, tomorrow is D-Day, the official start day for smashing both my eating habits and my exercise habits. I'm hoping to go to the Cycle class (if there are enough bikes, because I'm only on a trial pass, I can't book them!) and then follow that by the Body Pump class. I know that's a lot and to be honest I'm not even sure I'll be able to manage it, but it's the only way I can get to all the classes in the week.
I WILL get that baby. Maybe not this year now, but that doesn't mean I can't have a 2012 baby...
Sunday, April 3, 2011
The 2ww and then some...
Just a quick update from me (I should be studying but am once again, procrastinating!!)...
I'm now CD29 and AF hasn't arrived. Looks like it's going to be a long month this month again. Just when I thought I had the patterns down pat, and figured out, last month I thought it was going to be a long month and turned out to be a 29 day cycle. This month, I thought it was going to be a short month and looks like it's going to be a long month.
I try not to symptom spot but as those who have been through the tww will know, it's fucking hard. Take Friday for example, walking along the street and my arm that is up holding my handbag on my shoulder bumps my boob as I brush past people and I think, "hmmm that nipple feels a little sore, how do I 'feel' myself up in public without actually looking like I'm intentionally touching my boobs?". My nipples are VERY sore at the moment and I wish I could say that this must mean I'm UTD, but as we all know, the symptoms for pregnancy and AF are so similar, it's hard (if not impossible) to tell them apart.
DP has predicted that AF will arrive on Tuesday. He seems to be more accurate than the BOM (Bureau of Meteorology in case you weren't sure), so I guess we'll see...
I'm now CD29 and AF hasn't arrived. Looks like it's going to be a long month this month again. Just when I thought I had the patterns down pat, and figured out, last month I thought it was going to be a long month and turned out to be a 29 day cycle. This month, I thought it was going to be a short month and looks like it's going to be a long month.
I try not to symptom spot but as those who have been through the tww will know, it's fucking hard. Take Friday for example, walking along the street and my arm that is up holding my handbag on my shoulder bumps my boob as I brush past people and I think, "hmmm that nipple feels a little sore, how do I 'feel' myself up in public without actually looking like I'm intentionally touching my boobs?". My nipples are VERY sore at the moment and I wish I could say that this must mean I'm UTD, but as we all know, the symptoms for pregnancy and AF are so similar, it's hard (if not impossible) to tell them apart.
DP has predicted that AF will arrive on Tuesday. He seems to be more accurate than the BOM (Bureau of Meteorology in case you weren't sure), so I guess we'll see...
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