Still waiting

We're now into our 11th cycle.  Obviously still not UTD.  Still doing acupuncture every week and I have now lost.... weight for it, weight for it (I couldn't help using the pun lol)....a whopping 21.3kg since 14 April.  


I've lost 13cm from my chest, 18 from my waist, 9.5 off the widest part of my body (ie my arse) and approx 15cm off each thigh.  Kinda figures that I'd have lost the smallest amount around my arse, bloody typical isn't it?!?! What I'd like to do is take those 13cm and put them back on my chest, and take the 13cm from my arse!!!!!  But I digress...


Of course I'm getting impatient, but who isn't after they've been trying for 10 months, and who wouldn't be if they'd been waiting for the opportunity to try for another baby for over 3 years?


I've been focussing quite a bit on the weight loss which has been good because it's taken the focus off the TTC.  Interestingly, what initially started as losing weight to get pregnant has morphed into something completely unrelated to getting pregnant.  I'm liking the changes I can see in my body and rarely even connect eating healthy and exercising with the quest for a baby.


In fact, some months, I focus so much on the weight loss that I couldn't even tell you what CD I'm on, although I might have a vague idea of the general vicinity.  Some months, I've been lucky enough to even get to CD20-something before I realise it.  


Every time the red dragon shows her ugly distorted face, I try to remind myself that others are in a much worse situation, some have been trying for longer, others going through IVF and others who will never have their own child.  


It's still disappointing though.  I don't know any way around the disappointment.  I wish I did.